Thursday, April 12, 2012

The Day From You Know Where!!!

I think the best thing to do is start from the beginning. Ben and I arrived at the IWK early yesterday morning, 0645 to be exact. I had packed up and left Ronald McDonald house. We had to walk to the IWK as the spring/summer street cleaning schedule was in affect and I had to park the van in the IWK parkade. We threw our bags in the van and then reported to the Day Surgery area.

Things started out alright. We were admitted. Paperwork filled out. Forms and consents signed. I changed Ben into his hospital gown and we started to wait for the plethora of surgeons, interns, residents, med students, nurses and support staff to begin their parade. Ben had the remaining of his preop blood work and tests done. Dr Hong and Dr Bezuly along with the anesthesia guys came in and gave their speech. The OR was booked for 3 hours and felt it would probably be over with before that. The nurse came to take Ben away. He was crying and that made me cry to be honest. It was so hard... but they had to take him in to give him some pain relief and minor sedation prior to securing his IVs. The liaison nurse told me she would be out to give me a report as soon as they had Ben's airway and surgery was going to start. As promised she returned 30 minutes later and told me that the IVs were no problem at all. First attempt for both the one in his hand and the one in his foot. Good news. Ben is still a tricky intubation just because of his Pierre Robin anatomy. It is improved from before and the anaesthesiologist were able to secure his airway on the second attempt. Apparently he was given some oxygen and all looked well. Surgery was starting. They would remove the left, allow the plastics team to close the left then begin work on the right. All sounded fine to me. The nurse said she would report back in an hour and that would give me a chance to get coffee, breakfast, make phone calls or whatever it was that I needed to do. I made some phone calls, sent some texts and tried to update the blog. I did manage to grab on of Tim Horton's finest coffee and make my way back to the family waiting room. I sat down and waited....expecting to be told they were finishing up and that I would be able to see Ben soon. However that wasn't quite how it ended up.

The nurse reassured me Ben was tolerating the operation very well and all of his vitals were excellent. However the surgeons had encountered a complication. The left distractor was embedded in the jaw bone and the device was not as easy to remove as they had anticipated. While the whole OR should be over, the surgeons were still only on the left side and no where near being done!  The next update would be in 45 minutes. I went to call Ashley and let him know the plan. By the time I finished I sent a few texts and made it back to the waiting room. The nurse was a bit later that she planned on being, in fact she didn't return for over an hour! I thought I would go insane!
Eventually she came out to say that the device had been removed and that the plastics team had started their work. I knew the plastics part was going to be pretty intense this time. Dr. Bezuly had a really good game plan and Ben would be a new little man. I was so relieved to hear that they were nearly half done. Still I was going insane since it was almost 1330!!!! The right side was an easier removal and by 1445 Ben had made his way into recovery.  I have never been so relieved in my life!

Dr.Bezuly came out to meet me followed by Dr.Hong. Turns out the left side had a massive infection!! (Big surprise eh??? I've only been saying that for HOW long????? And dismissed for being overly cautious!!!) So in addition to being embedded in the bone, the distractor device had some puss on it. Lovely. There were some issues with the bone but nothing major and nothing that (at this point) will need additional intervention. Now for the cause. Apparently because Ben was so small there were very limited places for the distractor device to attach. One of the screws on the left distractor was too close the the fracture site. Because of this it was not anchored well and started to loosen and work it's way out! So this answers why the infection never totally cleared and why the poor little boy was in so much pain and crying ALL the time. It hurt!! The doctors have decided to stop the cephalexin and begin clyndamycin. By IV first then switch over to oral. The right side looked excellent and healed beautifully. The positive thing is Ben laid down loads of good bone tissue and the integrity didn't seem to be impacted by the infection. This spared us from bone grafts, metal plates and overall unpleasantness's in that regard!

I was assured he would be awake soon and that I would be able to see him. Over two hours later he was just starting to stir!!! They eventually allowed me in despite him failing to wake up. He opened one eye when he heard my voice, smiled, sighed, closed his eye and resumed sleeping. Just like a Floyd boy!



We ended up back in good ol' 761 around 2200. Our second home...what are the odds right? To be honest I think that made things worse. I had gotten so used to being in that room with OUR things in it. Pictures from Victoria and Harrison. Toys for all the kids from child life. Our suitcases and things from home. This time it was just empty and sad. Plus being so close to the elevator I could hear every time it arrived on the floor. I was so used to going to the door to check if Ashley and Harry were coming to visit. I did this more than a few times before realizing they weren't going to be there no matter how many times I checked and it made me even sadder.

Over the course of the night Ben went from being sedated to being inconsolable and back to being sedated.  He didn't have a great night, and neither did I. I am so tired I could just cry.

At 0730 one of the ENT residents announced that Ben was being discharged on antibiotics and I could go whenever I was packed up. I was livid. He wasn't eating, not controlled pain wise and had not been monitored for the 24-48 hours they stated after coming out of surgery as discussed in the preop. Nor was he back to eating normally or had they tried him on the oral antibiotics as they had told me they would in the preop. I felt very deceived and I knew they wouldn't be doing it if Ashley were here.

I called right then and there and got an appointment with our pediatrician in the valley, since they were offering no plan to manage Ben's pain nor the fact he wasn't eating.

I packed and left. I didn't want to be there if they weren't going to do anything for him. The drive took over two hours. I had to stop several times to calm him down, or clean him up as he was still feeling rather sick. I also decided to pick up his antibiotic on the way to save a trip to town later. I had to try 5 pharmacies before I found one that stocked the oral suspension!

We were seen by Dr. Hilliard. She was waiting for us actually. As always she was very concerned. She wrote some scripts for pain control. She also decided to place Ben on a probiotic supplement since he has been on antibiotics for nearly 10 weeks already!

Together we discussed a plan for Ben's feeding. He is still trialed on a bottle. If he will not take it I will syringe feed him until feeds go back to normal. I picked up the supplies when I filled the pain medication prescriptions. I need to get at least 20mL in Ben every hour to meet his fluid needs. Obviously this could be in a bigger feed or spaced into individual ones.  Dr. Hilliard is on call all weekend starting tomorrow so I can go to VRH to see her if need be. I will see her back in the office Tuesday regardless. Should Ben's weight go down we will go back to fortified feeds, or discuss NG-pump feedings (since I have been trained and have all the supplies).  I feel better that there is a plan now.

Ben is medicated and sleeping now. The antibiotics make him feel sick and he hates them. Even his Ranitodine doesn't seem to do much to help with the reflux at the moment. I have been keeping the Tylenol and Advil going around the clock to try to keep the pain in check and have the stronger drugs if need be. (Fingers crossed we won't need much or for long)

Hopefully we will all have a good night and get some sleep. We ALL need it!

Wednesday, April 11, 2012

Still not done!!!

The surgeons have moved on to Ben's right side. Hopefully will be a bit easier than the left. They hope to finish within the hour or so. Fingers crossed!!!

Yet another update

Finally have the distractor out on the left and plastics is working on closing the site now....almost half done!

Oh my nerves!!!!

Update two

Our liaison nurse just came to update us. Ben is doing well so far. There has been a complication. Apparently they are still working on the left side. The distractor device has become imbedded in the bone making the removal more challenging.

For now that's all I know...next update in 30 to 40 minutes

Update one

After a very long night, Ben and I arrived to the IWK for his surgery.
It seemed like I answered the same questions a million times. Poor little Ben was not a happy boy. He was hungry and sore. After bloodwork and cardiology did their thing the anesthetist decided to give Ben some pain medication before securing his IVs.
The nurse took Ben away screaming...
I have just been given an update. The IVs are in and Ben is asleep. Once again he was a difficult intubtion, but luckily the anesthetists got his airway on the second attempt.

I will hear more in an hour...

This is going to be a long day....

Tuesday, April 10, 2012

Less than 12 hours

The final count down is on. In less than 12 hours Ben will be back in the operating theater for the second part of his mandibular distraction surgery.

It will be a relief to get rid of that external hardware, and the internal hardware too for that matter. However at the same time I am dreading it.

This time I am on my own. I don't have anyway to wait with. No one to distract me to keep me from watching the second hand on the clock as it seems to be stuck in the same spot.

While I know these doctors are experienced and more than capable at what they do, there is always the fear of the unknown. Any time someone has an operation there is risk, even if it is small. But lets face it...so far odds haven't meant much to us.

This is a bit earlier than what Dr. Hong had wanted to remove the device. He said the optimum time frame for the bone to ossify is 10+ weeks. We are only at 9 weeks. With all of his infections and pain, I can't help but worry what they may find when they get in there and what that will mean for Ben's course of treatment. Also there is the worry of post op infections again. Ben has been on antibiotics 8 of the 10 weeks post op already with only a few days break here and there. Every time the antibiotics were stopped the infection came back full force. It has been a nightmare and I hope this surgery will be the end of it! I worry about his breathing, I mean Pierre Robin babies are noted for breathing issues galore!! That with anesthesia can be a recipe for disaster. Nothing went wrong last time and his breathing was horrible so really the odds are not for anything happening, still given our track record I'd be a fool to dismiss it.

Then there is the feeding issues. Babies with Pierre Robin often have ongoing feeding issues. I have noticed even with just the infection that Ben doesn't take what he should at a given feed and I have to pretty much sit with him all day forcing him to eat, what he can, whenever he can. Luckily doing this until the infection started to become in control again allowed him to continue gaining weight and avoid another NG tube and pump feedings. I HOPE that his pain control is better this time and that he won't be so sleepy for so long. That his feeds can go back to normal and within a few days be home...or at least to my parents place.

I really should try to sleep but I am not sure I am going to be able to. Our room in Ronald McDonald House is in the basement, and I believe we are right below the toy area, given the thumping and banging, and other bizarre noises coming from above. Since Ben is asleep in his car seat I may take him in the bathroom with me so I can have a shower, since I believe for the first time since I arrived hours ago, the bathroom is free. The house isn't the same without our friends here. I miss Jeff and Cherlyn. This place just isn't they same without them. There was warm food waiting, and loads of friendly people, yet I wanted the comfort of a couple familiar faces and good friends.

I will try to update as much as I can tomorrow. Hopefully as things happen, since I am alone and need to keep my mind occupied so I don't end up admitted to the psychiatric ward.

T-11.5 hours....and Ben will be in the OR...Here we go again.

Monday, April 9, 2012

Quote of the Day


Never explain: your friends don't require it, and your enemies won't believe you anyway.






Sunday, April 8, 2012

Easter Morning!

Victoria's Easter Things:



Harry's Easter Things:


Ben's Easter Things:

Harry Concentrating very hard on trying to open his Spider man Egg:

A Yo-YO!!!

Taking his new Yo-Yo for a walk LOL:


Ben Laughing:

Benny Bean and his Sock Monkey Basket:


Harry inspecting his new airplane! :




And Again:


Harry Checking out Elmo:



Yuck Easter Grass!!! :




SMILE!!! :




Harry following Sister on the Easter Egg Hunt!

Victoria!



Harry!

My FAVOURITE picture of Victoria!



Harry stealing his Sisters Easter Eggs:

The Yellow Eggs were Harrison's favourite!




Kissing his Easter Egg:


Counting his Eggs:


All that was left in poor Benny Beans Basket after Harry took what he wanted LOL:

Saturday, April 7, 2012

Wednesday, April 4, 2012

Bus...BUS....BBBBBUUUUUUSSS!!!!!!!

To say Harrison loves a bus is an understatement. One of his favourite things to do is watch Sister get off the school bus. It is extra special at Nanny's house since the bus drops off Sister then loops back by Nanny's house on the way out of the subdivision. Today I got a great video of Harry and his sister waiting and watching the school bus.


Enjoy!!! (But not as much as Harry obviously!)


Monday, April 2, 2012

Benny Buzz LightYear!

Poor Benny Bean hasn't been feeling much like having his picture taken lately. In fact for much of the last week he has cried 90% of the time! Anyway today we are having a rare Happy (although somewhat medicated Happy) day.

Benny sporting his big brothers Buzz LightYear outfit that was daddy's favorite for a long time. Too cute!

Benny Buzz LightYear:







Sunday, April 1, 2012

30 and Out!

Dad did it!!! He has worked 30 years at Michelin and as of 2300 March 31 2012 he is officially retired. He hit the famous Michelin 30 and out! Woohoo!!!

Dad leaving work for the last time..(sorry flash misfired on this one!)




And again...just a LITTLE happy about never having to work in there again!!!